I'll be honest, I swing back and forth between worry and calm....that calm only coming from the Lord. Those moments of worry sneak in at unexpected moments though. Did I get enough food, when will life return to "normal", am I doing enough to ensure my children won't fall behind in their studies, etc. Questions run through my head constantly, especially at night when I try to go to sleep.
BUT, I will not let the enemy steal my joy and my assurance in Christ. I know God is in control in all things, the good and the bad.
Our normal lives are so busy. I have really struggled with this lately in my personal life. I am a wife, mom, preschool teacher, small group director of kids at church.... I wear many hats and feel pulled in many directions. I am tired and worn out many days but I love all that I do. I know teaching is a calling Jesus has given me in my life. But I can not help but wonder if even in the midst of this storm, God has a given us a great opportunity ---a gift of time with the ones we love the most. I am cherishing these days I get to just be with my girls. They aren't having to share me with others right now and its refreshing in a sense.
This year, I have noticed how much my oldest daughter, Kailey, has grown. She is 7, almost 8 and she's no longer that baby I held in my arms. She is quickly maturing and growing up and I don't want to waste even a moment with her. I will use this time home with her to grow our relationship and to create memories together as a family.
Most of my blog posts have been centered around school things---this one is a bit different. It feels good to get things off your chest so to speak and this quarantine is something we've never experienced (and I pray we never repeat LOL)...so writing about it is therapeutic and good to be able to look back upon one day.
We will get past all of this----life will return to a new normal---hopefully one centered more around our families and communities and a nation turned back to the great healer .
We are on day 2 of our home school adventure. I will say so far it is going great!! They are excited and having fun. My oldest thought it needed to be longer and more like "real" school but quickly realized it was up to her---we can get lots more accomplished with 1 2nd grader rather than 20+. Kendall (4k) and Natalie (3k) are able to do just about the same things so I'm basically doing a mini circle time with them like I did at school.
I plan to let Kailey do some self-led research project type activities. I asked her yesterday what she would like to learn about so that gave me some ideas.
One thing I'm looking forward to is our Caterpillars! I bought them for my classroom (we were going to do them as a family towards the end of school) but since they never made it to school, we are going to learn all about them here at home!
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